FIRST POST OF 2012 ~~~~~ LOL

Hey all blogwalkers......... it seems this is my first post of 2012 LOL.......

It really has been awhile I've been blogging............ nothing much to say actually .......... just got the feeling of posting some crap here....... too stress recently haizzzzzz still in my foundation year 3rd sem...... still got another semester to go


Having exams later at 6.30...... and im still online rather than studying LOL>>>> LIKE A BOSS LOL

Recently........ I dunno why... but I felt that there are many questions in my head.... and I am CONFUSE...... Im even not sure if it is a question or not...... it just that there are many things happening in my mind right now....... can't even describe it clearly.......

Recently with the stress.... it seems that i dun even like to mingle around with people much........... having dinner alone, attending class alone, walking around campus alone....... you can even say I was lonely and pity.... but that is what i want at the moment..... just really feel that being alone can really give myself some peace of my mind.........

haizzzz

I AM AFRAID..........

I AM AFRAID,
What can I do to make it right,
Words couldn't be said,
things are being tight.

I AM DEPRESSED,
What is the problem now,
Building up stress,
It seems I need to calm myself down.

I AM SAD,
What the hell is going on,
getting emotional now will be bad,
So, why not just march on.

With the highs and lows,
Grief in a row,
All I feel is sorrow,
The feeling of loneliness in me grows.


DAMN~~~~ I recently felt that something is not right..... ARGHHHHHHHH Maybe its pressure???

I just couldn't cope with it== haizzzzz

I just hope that everything could just stop haizzzzzz

COUNTING DOWN TO 30TH OF DECEMBER 2011~~~~~ 2011 COMING TO AN END...... WELCOME 2012 ^^

ARGHHHHHH~~~~~~ I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR 30TH DECEMBER 2011. THAT 'S WHEN MY LAST FINAL PAPER FOR SEMESTER 2......... AND IT WILL 2 WEEKS BREAK........ XDD HECK BETTER THAN NOTHING LOL......... XD

Anyways, still gotta get ready here. Exams is on Tuesday to Friday. Haizzzzzz............ studied like hell the past few weeks........ sleeping very late everyday........... *wooopssss I MEAN EARLY. If u know what I mean XDD lol....... Hopefully I will pass this time. HECK.......... I feel that this year my luck always falls on the 2nd chance. DAMN lol......... the 1st chance always fail........... while the second is always the golden line to success lol............ hopefully i get it right on the 2nd chance given to me.


Haizzzzz......... My hostel is becoming a ZOO........ too many animals being taken care of by my housemates..........== and the SMELL IS LIKE................. OMFGJCDHTH......... it's really totally foul smell coming out from one of my housemates room......... and the worst thing is........ he is normal with it== WEIRDO==

I was thinking in moving out next semester to a better environment........ haizzzzz......... but gotta think twice before making the move haha..........

BULLIED ALL THE TIME!!!

DAMN~~~~~

how does it feel when something which is so small end up in a big argument~~~~~~ and to top all of that..................... you are the 1 to be blame for the start of the argument==~~~~~~~ isn't it weird???

SERIOUSLY.......... I JUST FACE THAT FREAKING SITUATION==

COME THE "F" ON!!== IT'S JUST A FREAKING SMALL ISSUE. IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY............. "F" OFF== DON'T COME AND TRY TO MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT AND BLAMING ME ON STARTING THE WHOLE FREAKING THING==!!!

Maybe you can say that I am a bit sensitive from this........ but try letting others complain and teasing you ALL THE TIME== it's like being bullied, asshole==

you can't blame me from being ME==......... DAMN~~~~ i have F-ING FEELINGS FOR GOD DAMN SAKE==

IT SEEMS THAT YOU ALL REALLY LIKE TO GO OVER THE LIMIT IN GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!

I DARE SAY~~~~~~~~ I SERIOUSLY DID MY BEST IN TOLERATING WITH ALL THE TEASING AND COMPLAINING ON ME!!

BUT HAVE YOU EVER REALLY THOUGHT ON HOW WILL PEOPLE FEEL==

HAVE SOME SENSE FOR GOD SAKE==

SCREW MY LIFE~~~~~==

SERIOUSLY~~~~~ I REALLY OUGHT TO SCREW MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!

I HAVE SERIOUSLY FAILED ONCE AGAIN IN MY FREAKING DREADFUL AND YET PITIFUL LIFE!!! ==

FIRST OF ALL, BEFORE I START OFF WITH MY COMPLAINTS ON MY BLOG, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY WAS ACTUALLY THINKING OF LEAVING THE WORLD OF BLOGGING~~~~~~ FOR GOOD!!!!

UNTIL TODAY...................... I AM BACK AGAIN TYPING OUT THE MISERIES THAT IS INSIDE MY HEART WAITING TO BURST OUT............ HAIZ

WELL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ BACK TO THE ISSUE. I HAVE YET AGAIN DISAPOINTED MY PARENTS ONCE AGAIN== TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF ALSO.


JUST LAST WEEK........... I GOT MY RESULTS FOR THE FIRST SEMESTER OF MY UNIVERSITY LIFE. I FAILED 2 SUB OUT OF 5==~~~~ F**K IT ==

DAD WAS THE MOST DISAPPOINTED ONE, KEPT ON WORRYING AND NAGGING ON HOW I COULD FAIL...................... WHEN I ONLY HAVE TO CONCENTRATE 5 SUBJECTS WHICH COULD BE EASY TO PASS ACTUALLY................ DAMN IT==

SOMEHOW.......... I FEEL THAT ALTHOUGH I HAVE STUDY HARD FOR THE EXAMS AND GETTING READY FOR THE EXAMS AND YET STILL FAIL.................... THAT IS REAL CLASSIC I'M TELLING YOU~~~~~~~~~ HOW STUPID I CAN GET................ CAN'T EVEN CONTINUE ON SMOOTHLY...............==

NOW CONTINUING SEMESTER 2 WITH MY NAME ON THE PROBATION LIST OF THE UNIVERSITY. GREAT, IF I FAIL THIS SEM AGAIN~~~~ AND MY CGPA IS 2.0 BELOW~~~~~~~~==


ADIOS SUCKER, TERMINATION IS KNOCKING ON MY DOOR~~~~ HAIZZZZZ


NO MATTER HOW NOW.................. I RATHER NOT THINK SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!!

IT'S BETTER FOR ME TO PUT IN MORE EFFORT THIS TIME AND REALLY GET THE HEAD START I NEED FOR THIS SEMESTER AND CAN PASS ALL MY SUBJECTS IN THIS SEMESTER SO THAT I WON'T BE FORCE OUT BY TERMINATION AND CAN CONTINUE ON TO SEMESTER 3!!!

GOTTA GET MY HEAD RIGHT.................. I CAN'T REALLY FAIL MY PARENTS ONCE AGAIN ESPECIALLY MY DAD~~~~~~~~~ I WOULD HOPE THAT ONE DAY, MY DAD WILL SEE HIS SON IN SUCCEEDING IN THE WORLD OF BUSINESS............... I REALLY MUST DO IT!!!!!!

IS IT MY FAULT!?!?!? OR YOURS!?!?!?

I couldn't believe it has been 2 months since I moved to Kampar and have studied UTAR. Time certainly passes by pretty fast!!!

But it seems the faster the time passes, the faster this semester will end.

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT~~~~~~ ==

I just can't stand it anymore here............. Every time I will be stressed out of my mind!

ASSIGNMENTS, GROUP WORK, PRESENTATION, TUTORIAL HOMEWORKS AND ALSO FACING TO THOSE PEOPLE WHICH REALLY PISSES ME OFF EVERY TIME.

I am really getting sick here.............. Sometimes I may be over the limit at times, and I understand my wrong-doings. I didn't even repeat it or do it anymore. Why must I get it even worst??? Isn't this unfair to me!?!?!?!?

I MAY BELIEVE IN KARMA............ BUT IS IT FAIR???

I may have started the whole thing, But is it right for me to get it twice as bad as you!?!?!?!?

I maybe going out of my mind here. I am actually at a loose end at the moment. I even dare say I may not be emotionally balance at the moment, I may really go crazy 1 day if I was once again push to the limits.

Especially it went on public................ is that fair for me!?!?!?!?

All I did was just personal and humour................ JUST FOR LAUGHS

But is it necessary to do it PUBLICLY!?!?!?!?!?

I have stopped and didn't even repeat it. But yet I still get it!!!

MINE OR YOURS??? MY RIGHTS OR YOUR RIGHTS???

I CAN'T EVEN HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS SINCE I MOVED HERE!!!
IS IT WRONG TO EAT WHATEVER I LIKE???
IS IT WRONG DRINK ICE WATER???
IT IT WRONG TO EAT INSTANT/FAST FOOD???

HECK, IT'S MY FREAKING BODY~~~~~~~~~~ NOT YOURS!!!!!
I LIKE TO EAT, DRINK AND DO WHATEVER I WANT.............. SO I WOULD APPRECIATE IF YOU JUST SHUT UP WHEN I'M DOING SOMETHING!!!!!!!

IS IT MY FAULT THAT I AM STRESSED AND PISSED OFF!?!?!?!? OR IS IT YOURS!?!?!?!?!

It is my fault , but it is yours too!!!!

HOME SICKNESS T^T~~~`

Ever thought of missing home when you are far away from your hometown??? well I did, it really sucks being away from home== haizzzzz

just the thought of being here for another 2 more semester in kampar makes me wanna puke==
I jus dunno why.............. I suddenly feel the eager to leave this place.............. I even dare say it's kinda sad, everyday waking up in an environment which is TOTALLY FREAKING DIFFERENT from home.............. it's just that it is so frustrating at the moment==

I just miss home............... and also my mom and dad T^T.............. haizzzzz

REALLY................ I DUNNO HOW LONG I CAN STAND IT............ IT'S JUST THAT, MAYBE I'M NOT CUT OUT FOR THIS KIND OF STAYING ALONE AND BEING INDEPENDENT TYPE OF PERSON ==

I really do hope I can last till september.................. that's when semester reak starts............. and i can go home for a week XDD

I REALLY ADMIT............. THIS IS REALLY FRUSTRATING.............. SUDDENLY MISSING HOME T^T DAMNNNNNNN==